alone in a crowd
As I walked around the crowded scene at the first home football game, I couldn't help but think of how desolate it looked to me. Neither of my parents were there and Jason was in Lawrence. Plus most of my friends graduated last year. The pang of lonliness hit as I stood alone in a crowd, thinking of how things have changed. Up to this point I'd been able to avoid thinking of how different life was with my dad several 100 miles away. Knowing everyone around me and at the same time feeling utterly alone, it almost felt like a scene from a movie where everything around the main character is moving so fast but they're just standing still. I heaved a big sigh and went to find the people I call friends.
It was different at this last football game. Dad was home and I felt more connected to the things around me. I never noticed how just knowing someone is there makes a place more friendly. I didn't even have to see him or go find my family, but just the thought that if I wanted to, I could disconnect from the superficial world and hang out with my family.
I guess I've been overestimating the power of modern technology. I could talk to my dad almost anytime I wanted to and could send pictures back and forth through blogger or email, but I just haven't done it very much. Taellor said something about only going to the homecoming dance because she didn't want to go home. I hope no one takes their family for granted. This scenario is much better than one where you could never talk to your family again but it is still almost as bad. What a cruel little game to play where someone is ripped from your grasp just to dangle in front of you again a moment later.
Concentrate
This picture amazes me every time I see it. Look at her concentration. It's like nothing around her matters at that moment except getting the arrow to go exactly where she wants it. Sometimes I wish I were able to just block everything out, even if just for a moment, to accomplish a goal...
my philosophy
"It was my first clue that atheists are my brothers and sisters of a different faith, and every word they speak speaks of faith. Like me, they go as far as the legs of reason will carry them—and then they leap."--Yann Martel,
Life of Pi.
Brennan, you're always mad about us bashing religion, but we aren't really that different. This is one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite books. It means that atheists will believe anything reason can prove, and then when they need more, they take a chance. The leap of faith for us isn't a leap of
faith exactly, but it is kind of the same idea. This community is so wrapped up in religion. If you want to be different, really different, it takes a lot of courage and determination. So don't undermine my decision just because it is different from yours. That is how most wars get started--all religions have basically the same idea behind them. A higher being created the world and all that. So why do people fight over their own interpretations? It is just a different way of seeing something that everyone happens to know about. I'm not saying we should abolish religion, if we did, people would just find something else to argue about. I'm saying people should try to understand other's views before losing their tempers.
ARGGG!
alright this is in response to something brennan said the other day. i already answered, but i'm going to explain it a little more. just because i WENT to japan and i STILL talk about it DOESN'T mean that i'm rubbing it in your FACE! that experience is one of the best i've ever had and i REFUSE to just "get over it." something like that is meant to change your life, if it doesn't, you skrewed something up and made yourself have a bad time. and besides brennan, you would never leave the state by yourself, let alone the country! so don't tell me to get over it if you don't know what it is like, never will, and don't plan to!
