and everything starts today

takin it easy

so i am fairly sure that no one checks this anymore, but that is ok... i am going to try to write again.

updates:

i finished my first semester of college and am throwing myself into my second.

life at the dorms really isn't so bad, although i am definitely looking forward to next year when my roommate and two of our friends get a 4-person suite... that means i get my own room again!

rochelle seems deathly ill the last few days and it really sucks for her... because tomorrow is her birthday! i hope she feels better tomorrow, because we have a surprise for her that i think she will really enjoy... at least i hope so.

i am not getting enough sleep for my classes this semester... call me a slacker it's probably true. unfortunately i don't seem able to balance my need for sleep and my need for activity.

i think college has just as much drama as high school did, and i cannot seem to get out of the way, although it is cooling off for the moment.

speaking of cooling off, i live in montana now! and it is too damn cold here all the time... as of right now, it is snowing... a blessing because that means it is slightly warmer than it could be outside...

i can't wait the warm weather to come back, sometimes i wonder if i wouldn't have been better off going to college somewhere in the south after all. i do love the southwest, i just wish i could have found a program i liked. but then i wouldn't know all the people i know now and i wouldn't see my family at all.

jason goes to school here too, and it usually is a good thing, although he seems to dislike me lately and there is nothing i can really do to change that.

i am finally playing soccer again for an intramural team, and i think i am realizing that i would rather play the way we used to... four of us fooling around in the old stadium at 10 o'clock at night because that's when the humidity finally lifted enough for us to breathe... i am a competitive person, but i don't have as much fun as i used to.

sadly one of my favorite classes this semester is precalc... i didn't realize how much i missed math until i got back into it and actually wanted to do my homework.

my other favorite class is called the sociology of alternative religions. that's code for cults. the only problem is that it is 3 hours long on a tuesday night... but i find it easier to stay awake for the entirety of that class than i do for my hour long classes.

today i skipped my 8 o'clock class so i could be awake for physics and precalc... we had a test in precalc. i was sitting in physics listening to a discussion over who knows what (it is a class about the theory of relativity and i think it might be way over my head...) when i heard the professor say, "and Caitlin's trying to take a nap back there..." i hadn't even realized my eyes were closed. that should tell me something... if i sleep without even knowing i'm doing it, i am probably doing something wrong. my precalc test went ok, i didn't study last night and i really only didn't know two problems on the test, i think that might be my highest grade this semester.

i realized the other day that i am a time bomb waiting to explode. and if not me, then my kids, if i have any... what i mean is that my family has a bad history. my grandmother died of skin cancer this past spring, her husband had kidney cancer, my other grandmother had breast cancer, and her husband died from heart failure. we have aunts and uncles with depression, alzheimers, and so many other problems that it's not funny anymore.

on a happier note, college is turning out to be a positive experience so far. things are going fairly well, i'm staying active, and i have a good set of friends. i have a job working with the foreign student office and i'm just starting to feel comfortable in what i do, although it's not terribly exciting. i do hit the party scene occasionally and i feel comfortable with the people i go with and the fact that i don't drink, don't smoke, etc. etc. i'm fairly organized and in control of my life, except for the sleeping thing, but i think that comes with the territory. all in all, life is going as smoothly as it probably could be, at least as much as i would like it to be, and i've got no complaints.

posted by Caity @ 3:14 PM