New Years Doubts
It is the New Year! I don't know how to describe this feeling. It is nearing graduation and I don't know if I am happy to be leaving or not. I think that if we weren't moving, I would have no problem letting go. Because I could always come back to visit. But now our family is moving too. When I come back for the holidays, it will be like starting over. I'm sure my parents will make friends in Montana, they always do, but I will only have my friends from college, and they will still be 400 miles away. I will come "home" for the holidays, but not really "home." At times, the year seems to be going so slowly, just creeping along at this incredibly slow rate. And then again, it seems like I'm stuck on this train that's flying through the year and there's no way to stop it or slow it down. I wish Dad could be sure of his job in Montana. I wish we could go visit up there. I think that would calm my nerves a little. I seem to be floating along, not really committing to being here, because I know I'm moving, but not to anywhere else because I don't know where I'm going... If I could just see for sure where we are moving, it would be easier to picture us living there. I think about the big things, like leaving friendships that have taken years to form here. And familiar surroundings. But then I find myself worrying about stupid little things, like how will they now where to send my yearbook when they get it in next year. And how will I keep in contact with people so I know about a reunion somewhere down the road.
posted by Caity @ 9:16 AM
1 Comments:
Well yes reunion is the best way out to meet good old friends.... and the passion to stay in touch will hopefully lead u people to contact each other frequently... well who knows , u may have lots of new friends in Montana... its love trust and affection which forms the foundation of the sweetest relationship on earth....do drop by my My Friendship blog sometime let me know what u think...!!!
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