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What a weird mood I'm in

It's been a while since I've blogged, so I guess I should. It's not really my fault--I've been trying to read this book so I can somehow salvage my English grade. We have this program that makes us read certain books for points throughout the year. I have one more week to finish about 2.5 books. It counts toward my English grade.

So today I was thinking--there's so many things that affect my mood. I'm stressed out waiting for my dad to sign official papers saying that we're moving. I haven't told anyone but a coupla friends that have moved before and I thought might understand. Jason I guess has told a few more. Taellor talked to me on the bus the other day about it, and Lauren overheard, so I ended up telling Lauren too. But I guess it's not such a bad thing, they'll all find out eventually. Diego called me on the phone on Saturday night about 11:30 to talk to me about it. It really surprised me. He just kinda called up out of the blue and was surprised that I answered my phone. It would have woken me up anyway, but we happened to have just gotten home from prom dress shopping, so I was still awake.

It may not seem like such a stressful thing for most people to deal with. But not knowing if your dad, who brings in over half the family's income, is going to have a job is very stressful! And another thing, I've never really been attatched to this school because I've never had a friend here that lasted very long (Dana is setting a record though). But if dad got a job and we suddenly needed to move one year before I finished high school... So we have kinda decided that mom and I will stay here to finish my last year. Not having Dad around is not going to be easy. I said earlier that I do actually get along and enjoy spending time with my family. So this problem is really big.

I tend to ignore most people at this school because of reverse culture shock. Reverse culture shock is what happens when you come back to your own culture and have trouble adjusting back to it. A typical high school girl only thinks about herself and what so-and-so said about so-and-so and other crap like that. I guess I'm too mature for my age. I'm not trying to sound all high and mighty about myself, I'm just trying to say how I feel. If you don't like it, stop reading.

Another thing that affects my mood is other people's moods. Someone who is usually hyper and happy and laughing all the time can't suddenly stop and expect no one to notice. No matter how much I don't like the person, I can't help feeling sorry and empathizing with him. It puts a damper on my already down mood to the point where I just want to go home and mope around. And I don't even know what is bothering him!

So anyway...

posted by Caity @ 11:12 AM